My Five minutes Rant

Let me bare my heart. I rejoice when people get pregnant, have their babies and all that.....eish..... but the truth is, somewhere in my sub consciuous it hurts …..it’s like ..........it brings to light my frailty.

Look at it this way, you and your classmates write an exam and  then when the results are out…… you realise you failed………… yeah, no big deal….you dust yourself up, pick up your books , read and prepare for the exam again but this  time with your juniors………. results are out and you failed again………….. now getting up takes a whole lot of courage,..............however, you keep getting up after each failure .  Now imagine this cycle for six years............. that is 72months of trials.

Yes, I have read and heard all sorts, motivations, not using others as a yard stick bla…….bla bla…………………..God has a perfect timing.  He’s preparing my own Isaac, Samson, Samuel, John the Baptist, Jesus sef…“ For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: Proverbs 24: 16A  

The truth is ………..it still hurts.

Hurting doesn’t mean I don’t have faith in God, it means I have blood flowing in my veins.  I don’t begrudge anyone of their blessings.  Infact, I rejoice with people  because it reaffirms my faith that God is still at work.

Why?  ‘Cos if money can buy it, I should have nothing less than 5 kids now…. Yeah, you read right; 5 kids. At one time, I had 3 fertilised eggs transferred into me ……… had two other procedures…. And I am still without a child.  It sucks.

Phew………… where did all that come from………another birth……….. someone’s wife just had a baby in my unit. And this other lady beside me is preggers, another guy’s wife is due this week….kai, the babies this month can form a basketball team .......God, it can only be you. 

I have prayed, fasted, praised, confessed the word, rolled, jumped, danced, everything you can think of …………..  wait oh…….. no juju or babalawo oh. LOL..... may i never go to the devil to  look for solution in Jesus Name. Amen

“Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him”. Job 13:15

 Now I feel good. Unexplained infertility................wetin I buy from your market.................left me oh......... it definitely feels good to get all that out .............

NB: Am not bitter oh............. just had a rush of emotions.........and like I said in the post , i don't wish anyone bad oh...biko ......... this is just my heart in its nakedness. (dunno if you catch my drift sef)

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Some days life feels so laden with too much troubles

At other times, the day feels a whole lot easier weight to carry

I am learning to put away the troubles

‘Cos the thought of tomorrow brings rays of hope

I know tomorrow will definitely be better

As in………… God definitely has a plan for me…….. His Word says (King James Bible):

·         Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations. Jeremiah 1:5

·         Listen, O isles, unto me; and hearken, ye people, from far; The LORD hath called me from the womb; from the bowels of my mother hath he made mention of my name. Isaiah 49:1

·         I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother's belly. Psalm 22:10

I am not a Pastor oh…..but most times when I feel overwhelmed I dig up scriptures to boost my spirit man. 

This past week has been just there………… nothing so exciting …… wait oh. I have a story a male colleague shared with me.

According to him, he said he was upset with his wife cos she “cursed him”. I wondered why a wife would curse her husband. Sykik asked him what happened, what was the curse… as in oya tell me everything ……

He wasn’t willing to tell the story but was shocked that she said “God punish you” to him. I told him that he must have said or done something for her to have retorted thus otherwise, she couldn’t have opened her mouth and that was the only thing she could think of saying.  He said because he paid her full bride price there was no way the curse could be upon him. He said in their culture (somewhere in Benue State) that if a woman’s bride price is fully paid, she automatically becomes the man’s asset. Therefore, something he paid for with his sweat/money can’t place a curse on him.  Is this true that women are assets in Benue…… so what happens to the cultures who don’t collect bride price? He insinuated that he was going to take her back to her parent’s house.

Anyways, I told him that I am very sure that he must have hurt her deeply and probably she wanted him to feel her pain and the only way she could get a reaction from him was to end her ranting with those words. I asked him to seat her down and have a heart to heart talk with her. That he should explain that her choice of words were not appropriate for use on her husband. I said most often women use words as a weapon. She did and obviously threw a punch that hit him below the belt.

I asked that they end the talk session with a divine, Holy Spirit filled, tongues speaking, hallelujah shouting …… make up ^sex that transcends all human understanding……. it helps a lot. ^{Ask your pastor if you are in doubt}

APRIL 2012 RCCG HOLY GHOST SERVICE PRAYER POINTS

It was the CHILDREN SPECIAL HOLY GOST SERVICE. 
Prayer points raised are 

1.      Father, I thank you. Let my children praise you

2.      Father, in all that I do from now on let me excel

3.      Father, promotion comes from you. Please promote me this year

4.      Father, as my children grow in age, let them grow in wisdom and in the  knowledge of God

5.      Father, let my children be head and not tail, above and not beneath

6.      Father, as for me and my children let us keep rising forever

7.      Father, don’t let anyone or anything truncate the destinies of myself and children

Special Prayers

• For Daddy Adeboye

 Pray that

Ask that barrenness will be forgotten in RCCG. Let barrenness be a stranger in RCCG in Jesus Name and that all the 70,000 babies Daddy Adeboye asked God for will come this year 2012. (This was Pastor Adeboye’s request from God as his special birthday gift from God )

• For yourself

Ask whatever you want God to do for you so that you can continue to shine for him

 May God answer our prayers. 

AMEN

TTC

I guess most of my rant is about me and my TTC period.

I noticed that pregnancy is like a virus? A woman catches it in the office and every other married woman around her follows instantly. 

In my office, I am on a floor where 98% of the members of a particular unit are females and all of them get preggers at the same time. This has been happening for the past 4years oh. No kidding. I have watched people get married in that unit and get pregnant like it is going out of fashion. That’s why they had to begin to introduce men into the unit small small oh.  Infact, we joking threaten them that they should have a roaster.

Also, in my own small corner, thats the same story oh. Everyone is on baby number two.  And they all got married after me oh. Infact, one lady just got preggers and now the lady beside her has gotten preggers, the thing jumped me ( lai lai, Sykik be positive thinking for once...... how do you know it has jumped you..........Little Red Riding Hood neva come nau........) infact, my confession every day this month is that I'm preggers . I say this everyday. From my mouth to God's ears.

Now the lady beside me has started behaving funny. Am thinking she’s preggers too.  She's falling asleep at her desk in the mornings and rubbing her tummy. Where does this leave me in the equation?

God sure does have a funny sense of humour.

Maybe I will start to go and rub my belly with this woman wey dey my side own oh.......... abi what do you guys think?