Merry Merry Christmas

It's the month of Cakes & Candles,
Snow & Songs,
Carols & Joys,
Laughter & Love,
It's DECEMBER..

Wish you all things
merry and bright
this season.

UnHappy...... Lai Lai

Unhappiness is a state of mind that often leads to depression.I am unhappy. Do I want depression. Heavens No!!! So, am gonna shake off the beast of unhappiness into the fire.

It's just about nineteen days to the end of Year 2011. I reject this mood with all my being. I reject its venom upon my life and home.

I just read on another blog http://lindaikeji.blogspot.com/2011/12/rip-okwy-onyegbula.html about the death of a pregnant 32yr old Nigerian lady in Canada. She got married last year, got pregnant and just some days ago she's gone. No baby, no mother.

I feel so much pain for this woman who was bringing forth another life but lost the battle; To the husband,who had always imagined growing old with her; the parents who have lost a child and; to everyone who knew her, I know that God will heal your hearts.

Life is precious. There definitely is no time to be unhappy.

Unhappiness...... I say gerrraaaoooouuutttt. Yeah, you heard me right. I command you in the name of the Lord to pick up your weapon and flee.

I don't even know if this post makes any sense. I better stop before I ramble into oblivion.

My Dream

Had a dream, saw this dirty looking, nose dripping girl being held by someone clinging to me for dear life. She kept crying, looked pathetic wanting to stay with me but I kept pushing her away, like saying " Go away" "you disgust me". Whoever was holding the child stared at me with pity in the eyes. The eyes held so much meaning I felt ashamed but I didn't want filth, I didn't want a weeping clingy child.

I had this dream on Tuesday and I haven't been able to get it out of my mind. I don't normally remember my dreams but this particular dream I can recollect vividly. It's been replaying in my subconscious . What does it mean? Could God be trying to tell me something.


Could that be God giving me a child and I was rejecting? God forbid.

state of bliss

I was close to the deepest edge of depression last week. Infact the highlight was that I went wacko on my hubby. I went beserk on nothing. I can't remember sef. The guy just went from shocked to dumb.... like 'expressionless' bland look .

After all the drama, we prayed. Peace just flowed within me and I was almost burstin with love . God loves me , my hubby loves me, what else....

Today, am glad , am short of words to describe this peace I have. All I know is that God makes all things beautiful in his own time.

My children shall surround my table. I am like a tree planted by the river of water, that brings forth fruit in due season.

Am blessed.

PAIN SO REAL

Why rape? Why descend so low?

Cyberspace has been buzzing with the story of gang rape by five male students of Abia State University, Abia, Nigeria of a female student.

Not only did they carry out this distardly act, they had the effontery to record and brazenly share the clip amongst friends.

I can't fathom nor comprehend this act of wickedness. Its not humane . These five guys have just proven that they are demons in human body. Noone deserves to be raped. Not even "ladies of easy virtue". Sexual relations should be consentual.

http://lindaikeji.blogspot.com/2011/09/five-boys-gang-rape-female-student-of.html?m=1

I feel her pain,in several ways . I have been down that road .

I join my voice to that of several other persons and say "NO"to rape

Its been too long a while

I have been TTC for over 4 years now. It aint funny one bit.

However, God has always given me the strength to see Him at work in and around me.

To Him who knows how much i hurt, how much i ache and crave to hold my own children be all honour, glory, power and praise.

In His time......... it will surely come to pass