My Five minutes Rant

Let me bare my heart. I rejoice when people get pregnant, have their babies and all that.....eish..... but the truth is, somewhere in my sub consciuous it hurts …..it’s like ..........it brings to light my frailty.

Look at it this way, you and your classmates write an exam and  then when the results are out…… you realise you failed………… yeah, no big deal….you dust yourself up, pick up your books , read and prepare for the exam again but this  time with your juniors………. results are out and you failed again………….. now getting up takes a whole lot of courage,..............however, you keep getting up after each failure .  Now imagine this cycle for six years............. that is 72months of trials.

Yes, I have read and heard all sorts, motivations, not using others as a yard stick bla…….bla bla…………………..God has a perfect timing.  He’s preparing my own Isaac, Samson, Samuel, John the Baptist, Jesus sef…“ For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: Proverbs 24: 16A  

The truth is ………..it still hurts.

Hurting doesn’t mean I don’t have faith in God, it means I have blood flowing in my veins.  I don’t begrudge anyone of their blessings.  Infact, I rejoice with people  because it reaffirms my faith that God is still at work.

Why?  ‘Cos if money can buy it, I should have nothing less than 5 kids now…. Yeah, you read right; 5 kids. At one time, I had 3 fertilised eggs transferred into me ……… had two other procedures…. And I am still without a child.  It sucks.

Phew………… where did all that come from………another birth……….. someone’s wife just had a baby in my unit. And this other lady beside me is preggers, another guy’s wife is due this week….kai, the babies this month can form a basketball team .......God, it can only be you. 

I have prayed, fasted, praised, confessed the word, rolled, jumped, danced, everything you can think of …………..  wait oh…….. no juju or babalawo oh. LOL..... may i never go to the devil to  look for solution in Jesus Name. Amen

“Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him”. Job 13:15

 Now I feel good. Unexplained infertility................wetin I buy from your market.................left me oh......... it definitely feels good to get all that out .............

NB: Am not bitter oh............. just had a rush of emotions.........and like I said in the post , i don't wish anyone bad oh...biko ......... this is just my heart in its nakedness. (dunno if you catch my drift sef)