Adoption versus IVF
My emotions are swinging like a pendulum
Give the IVF money to God as a faith seed versus hold God to ransom with “if–you-do-this”, “I-will-do-that“line
Forty looks so close, walahi…...Dear God, today, this very minute, please, I don’t want to be part of those women who give birth in their fifties…..don’t think I can wait that long…….
Am I being paranoid that my mother-in-law has a tiny bit of “but” about me?
I know I am not making any effort to go beyond the mother-in-law/ daughter-in-law relationship *bbm guilty face*
Sometimes I am scared shi*t about my marriage, I almost want to tuck my tail in between my legs and run
Nothing is wrong…absolutely nothing…...the truth is things are so good at home I shouldn’t be feeling like this
But, I still feel like crawling into a hole and getting away from everything
Phew…..I am truly Sykik :)